When I was kid, there was a secret that allowed me to always erase the past and begin again no matter what fantasy I was enacting with my toys, among my friends, or just playing Pitfall or Donkey Kong on my atari 2600; I hit reset when it just got to be too much and called: "Do over!" and everybody knew what happened before that no longer mattered, i was starting over and that was that!!

It has been a long and often precarious journey as I have sought to find my place both in the world as well as in the cosmos. My path has lead me through many avenues and many dead ends, yet I never quit in continuing the journey and the quest for the answers, the position, the love, and the home that I seek. Many of these posts were previously released on my WordPress account but I've decided to make them available outside of that site as well. I hope you enjoy them.
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Monday, June 03, 2013
Reviewing the posts from the acrhive via November 2012
Monthly Archives: November 2012
Finding my need for atonement again
“A broken and contrite heart, O Lord, you will not despise.” Psalm 51:17
It is difficult sometimes to have a mental deficit that keeps me on guard during schizophrenic episodes, and remember who I am underneath it all. I get lost in the stories that fill my mind and they often are very anti-spiritual, definitely anti-Christ in persuasion, and my faith is buried in an effort to protect the Heart that is so precious to me, one that developed in a Love that taught me to accept myself as I am, and give all of myself in service to Love for another. (more…)
Rediscovering me:
Intimate kiss of silence…
Through the looking glass….
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Thursday, May 30, 2013
A look back at through the archives of last September
Monthly Archives: September 2012
Faith or Imagination?
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The Gospel of Thomas (v. 11)
This heaven will pass away and that which is above it will pass away. The dead are not alive and the living will not die. In the days when you ate what is dead, you made it alive. When you come into the light, what will you do? On the day when you were one, you became two. But when you have become two, what will you do?
~Gospel of Thomas (v.11)
This is a very cryptic line that Jesus spoke to his disciples concerning the purpose and meaning of life, as they knew it, as he knew it, and as God knows it. There are two levels of heaven that Jesus refers to here, or rather two perceptions of heaven both will pass away. The first, this heaven, that which we create through Love on Earth, and more personally, Jesus was referring to Himself, will pass away; he died on the Cross and our mortality is limited. The heaven above refers to that which took place prior to Creation, before their was opportunity to become enlightened and as we Christians refer to it, redeemed. (more…)
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Intimacy
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Finding my way home…
I slipped into grave depression as I gave up on life ever having any meaning at all because I couldn’t produce the passion I required to adopt what others insisted should be my motivation, care, and responsibilities. Without passion and attachment to something other than myself, as having more importance than myself I was listless and disgusted with having to exist at all. I became detached from everything as a result of my passionless existence. What many seek through meditation and years of focus to achieve I did as an act of defiance to a world insisting I be something I’m not, which produced nothing but isolation and hopelessness, though without the chronic worries that most people carry. Some detachment is necessary for a carefree existence in a world of uncertainty and calamity…but it needs to be balanced with compassion and love, genuine love to be anything other than a self imposed exile from all human relation.
In the remnants of this once sane and proud young man is now the heart of Love that will never perish and is awake and aware of my presence at home in the security and affection of the one who loves me so much as to give me the time required to bring me around and turn into the very one Love always knew I would be.
In my current awareness I now know me to be both Lover and Beloved both are possible through the essence of the Love that has always been here and waiting for just this opportunity to bring this into fruition. I feel alive! And though I sit here, the scarred and wounded man left from this experience, I know Life as if for the first time, and I think of my absent beloved and know, she is worth the price and worth the wait, even to the end of time itself.
My journey has led me to death and life again, and I believe it has only just begun. :-)
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A peace without pictures.
I am accustomed to extreme bouts of mental unrest, and far too many events of staggering confusion in my disease of Paranoid Schizophrenia. At times, my mind becomes the battlefield of a war that seems to never end and the carnage is the deep wounds of a fractured psyche and phobias that resonate with the call to arms in a futile attempt at control. (more…)
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Prayer…
“Religion has lost sight of Jesus’ message…We aren’t focused on the great mystery. Rather religion has tended to create people who think they have God in their pockets, people with quick, easy glib answers. That is why so much of the West is understandably abandoning religion. People know the great mystery cannot be that simple and facile. If the great mystery is indeed the Great Mystery, it will lead us into paradox, into darkness, and into journeys that never cease. That is what prayer is about.”
~ Fr. Richard Rohr (a Jesuit Priest)
One of the wonderful things about prayer is that it isn’t predictable. It is delving into the the ultimate unknown, but never is it unknowable. (more…)
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