It has been a long and often precarious journey as I have sought to find my place both in the world as well as in the cosmos. My path has lead me through many avenues and many dead ends, yet I never quit in continuing the journey and the quest for the answers, the position, the love, and the home that I seek. Many of these posts were previously released on my WordPress account but I've decided to make them available outside of that site as well. I hope you enjoy them.
In the process of healing and through some recent events that left me with a great bit of time to contemplate about what it is I want to pursue, I’ve found that I haven’t given myself enough opportunity to become the person I truly enjoy. I’ve spent so much time drowning myself in yet more and more addictions because it is not what I want life to be and seeking an escape that I’ve failed to offer myself the very things that would allow me to value what I’ve been given.(more…)
The darkness of the early morn covers me like a shroud. The prayer of my slow rhythmic breath is felt upon the skin of my folded hands, fingers interlaced and humbly I’m knelt in submission to the peace I so rarely know in the midst of my mental battles, yet drawn back during the moments of sanity I am graced with now. In this act my life is resurected once more. (more…)
Terror and fascination of the mind that illuminates the invisible and casts a shadow over reality is the toll demanded by the disease that refracts the spectrum of all I understand during my schizophrenic episodes; this last one, a two month journey through the looking-glass. (more…)